heathurlee

heathurlee @ 2006-04-08T02:49:00

2006-04-08T06:52:06Z

alright
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i adreo al jones
i can reall say i do
and i can really say he adores me toooooooooooooo
so gies good
i love being sucnuggled
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heathurlee @ 2006-03-28T15:34:00

2006-03-28T20:46:11Z

Ehhhh.
Wow.
The gods strike again

Last night I got a ticket at like... 1:00 in the morning
For not coming to a complete stop at a stop sign
And it sucked.
I have to pay 90 dollars for that crap

Then.
Today I went for a drive
Came home, annnnnd my car started smoking and smelling hot and leaking tons of coolant everywhere
And I can't drive it now
&& I had to cancel plans with Al.
THAT SUCKED (though Al made me feel lots better)

Despite all that
Last night, I was the happiest I've been in a long, long while
Being serenaded with a guitar haha
And spooning on the couch
Having him fall asleep in my lap...
I was completely content, and that doesn't happen often
As well, the butterflies came. Lots.
And I loved them.

I've learned the art of patience
'Tis good

Well.
I just had to express my frustrations at the gods
For targeting my car now
That's the worst.

It's SO WARM OUTSIDE though...
Sunny, and beautiful
And it makes me happy

There's only one place I want to be right now...
And that my car is preventing me from being there
Just makes me so grumpy

Alright.
Enjoy the sun everyone :)

heathurlee @ 2006-03-15T00:27:00

2006-03-15T05:43:57Z

Alright.
I have a guilty pleasure.
The song *Pimp Juice*
I....... don't know why
But when I listen to it, I just wanna get down with my bad side
And wear gold teeth and feathers and purple suits

Do I forgive too easily?
This I don't know
But I do know
I can't resist the brown puppy eyes
And the mess of brown hair
Never, ever.
It's, perhaps, my greatest weakness
And I could never stay mad at the one who possesses these features

I went to Nanz's tonight
And it was really nice
Jess said the funniest thing ever
And I'm pretty sure one of my lungs deflated from it
Al was there. And I think that there is no need to rectify
All is well.

Damn.
I really never have anything substantial to say anymore
I used to be able to go on and on about interesting things
But I just don't have it in me anymore

I think, perhaps, I'm not going to write in here for a while.
Actually.
I know I won't

So.
With this, the last entry for a bit, I bid my readers adieu for now
Much happiness and good times for all

PaYcE

heathurlee @ 2006-03-14T19:19:00

2006-03-15T00:45:49Z

Ohhhh.
Thank the snow gods
Pretty much
For having two days of no class
It was great :)

But I'm angry at them
Cause Jess&Nanz called me to hang out last night
But I wasn't allowed to drive
And that sucked.
A lot.

I realized.
I'm angry at him (no need to specify)
I truly am
No need to go farther.
That's for me, myself, and I
But, damn...
Just sucks
Hopefully the situation can be rectified

Hey.
I really wish it was the weekend now.
Even though the rest of the week will be a breeze (hopefully)

I guess I don't have anything to say
Just lost all urges to write

Later loves

heathurlee @ 2006-03-13T20:46:00

2006-03-14T01:48:42Z

I just pretty much wanted to say
I love Jenni Sue
So incredibly much
Annnnd she's wonderful

As well
I am drinking oj&5-0 right now
In the hopes that I can stop thinking
For a little while

And I really do want it to be Thursday now
Cause I can't take school

Okay.
Love for all

heathurlee @ 2006-03-13T12:40:00

2006-03-13T18:14:52Z

I'm okay.
And I will continue to be okay.
Until the end of time
I'm walking on unstable ground right now though
And it's frustrating for me
I'm a lot vulnerable & a little lost

It's felt good to sit at home in my pj's, indulging in chocolate and cheesy songs.
And then.
I wonder.
Why, when something bad happens, do girls turn towards sad songs&movies
When, in the end, we know they'll only make us more sad.
Maybe, I guess, it helps release everything

Either way.
Idk.
I just really don't know.

But Coldplay is keeping me optimistic and happy
Because in 6 days
I'll be in Milwaukee, seeing them again.
And I don't even know what to say about that
I'm 10 million times more excited than I was the first time
Especially cause not only will I be able to see the stage this time (haha), I'll actually be up close to the stage.
And that's magnificent.
I love Chris Martin, but Guy Berryman has definitely found his place in my heart now too
Ohhhhh :)

This weather is CRAZY
I left for class this morning and it was raining
Then it started sleeting
And then.... lightning and thunder
And then.... snow
Just the craziest array of conflicting weather patterns ever
But it's awesome.

I surprisingly need this week
To be at home and relax
And get myself back up onto stable ground
Cause there is no way, NO WAY, I'm going to let myself stay this way.
No friggin way

And this weekend will be wonderful
Obviously.
I can't wait to hang out with my friends again
Cause no matter how much time I spend with them, it's never enough
Annnnd I love them all :)

We'll see about the boy.
I'd like to see him
But Idk if he deserves to see me right now
That's just something I need to decide

Ughhh
Sleep is so good
I love sleep
And the thunder started back up
So I'm going to go slip into a coma yet again

Payce&love&happiness

heathurlee @ 2006-03-12T01:24:00

2006-03-12T06:34:45Z

Wow.
Today was an emotional rollercoaster if I ever rode one.
But I'm okay now.

I never knew I had so much self control
To not allow myself to break down.
It was empowering!!

Welp
My friends are pretty awesome
It's true

I saw Al.
Annnnd he apologized.
Which was nice
Annnnnd I could tell he genuinely felt bad
Which is better
I forgive him.
How could I not?

I had the coolest trip to the beach ever
With Manda, Mark, Jordan, and Mikey
At 12:00 this evening
Twas beautiful
And they all crack me up

I'm feeling a bit more confident.
Neat

Today was neat-o
Even though it was rough
Bad day turned good I guess?

Gooooooooodnight

heathurlee @ 2006-03-11T17:04:00

2006-03-11T22:11:12Z

I will not be that girl
I'm not stupid

I kinda figured though.
And that's crappy
Cause we like each other
And we make sense together

But just because I adore him
Doesn't mean that I want to deal with stuff like this
Again.

Cause it's the pattern of my love life that I'm trying to break
Annnnnd I will.

Mark Schneider up and saved my day
By calling me at the perfect time
And for coming to the hockey game with me tonight
I love him.

Ehhhh.
I need a hug.

heathurlee @ 2006-03-11T11:40:00

2006-03-11T16:48:04Z

AhhhHhhhHh Saturday!!

Yesterday was a strange day.
It was... the longest day of spring break
In an odd kind of way

I hung out with Chase for a while
And that was really sweet
We drove around in my car and talked
And then went to his house and he played me some of his new music
Which, btw, is amazing, and I love it a lot

Then to Jordan's for a while
Annnnnnnd eventually to Nanz's
With Manda, Jordan, & Mark
And we hung out with Jess&Nanz, and Al
And a few others
Twas a good night
Laughed lots

And right now
It is...
11:44
Annnnnd in 3 1/2 hours I'm supposed to call Al
So we can go to the dog park... :)
I'm so excited.
It's starting to feel like we're together, in a really cool way
And I like it a lot

Spring break is winding down
And I haven't been disappointed at all
This has been the best spring break I've ever had
Truthfully and sincerely
I'm thankful for it
And for my friends & the boy
Cause they made it really great

Happy Saturday, one & all :)

heathurlee @ 2006-03-10T14:11:00

2006-03-10T19:39:28Z

Oh spring break, you beautiful thing, you

The last few days have been amazing.
Seriously.

Wednesday was a crazy day...
which gets a little fuzzy around the edges after 9:30
Kate came to hang out, which was awesome
But then she & I started taking shots of 5-0
And the rest of the night was history
Lossa people were there hanging out
Jess and Nanz came over, and I was so excited
Then I called Al and convinced him to come over
Annnd he caused me lots of happiness in a short period of time. Lots..
After this, I started barfing. An extreme amount
And when 12 o'clock rolled around, I realized I didn't need anything but my bed
So Sean, being the saint that he is, drove me home in my car
And ended up walking home
I love him, I really do, for that.

Yesterday... I had a layed back game of scrabble with Sean, Manda, and Jordan
And the latter two went to work

Sean and I walked around the island
And it was beautiful, really.
I forgot how easily I can talk to him
About anything.
And how much we see eye-to-eye on so many things
It was really nice, and just what I needed
We got to black rocks, and we both just stopped and listened to this amazing sound
Of water rolling under ice and such.
It was really crazy.

I came home, thinking I'd be spending the evening in my pj's with a book
But my love Jess called me
And at 10 o'clock I got dressed and headed over to Nanz's
Where I got to hang out with Jess&Nanz, and the boy Al Jones
It was mucho fun :)

Okay.
So after Al left, and Patty & Jazz came over.
And it was an adventure from then on

I can't explain how much Nanz&Jess make me laugh
Last night I thought I was going to start pooping lungs
Cause I couldn't even breathe anymore
We gave many birthday surprises to unsuspecting and unaging individuals.
And then went on a car ride
Where Patty ended up steering for me for a long time, to evade the treacherous pothole of doom.
I felt lazy&lucky haha
But.
I definitely couldn't stop laughing last night

I love my friends<3

Today will be an adventure
Which is exciting

And tomorrow Al & Buddy are taking Bella & I to the dog park, if the weather permits
I'm excited, and really nervous :)
I keep wondering how this happened.
Because I never in one million years thought it ever would.
But then I guess I had a feeling from the start
Even when everyone else didn't
I just knew.
And from the the first time we met and actually talked to each other, it was easy to see that we had a good connection
And I'm positive we both realized it.
To hear him say he's very, very lucky to have me in his life...
Made me so overwhelmed with happiness I didn't know what to do
Ahhh. I'm REALLY lucky too....

Life's just been too good lately
I don't know what to think
Cept what'd I do to deserve this?
No complaints
It's wonderful :)

HAPPY FRIDAY ONE AND ALL.
PayceandLove

heathurlee @ 2006-03-09T00:08:00

2006-03-09T05:09:44Z

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heathurlee @ 2006-03-07T02:06:00

2006-03-07T07:07:42Z

Tonight worked out
Talk about paranoia, hey?

I adore all my friends
So much
Near & far

heathurlee @ 2006-03-06T20:49:00

2006-03-07T02:01:13Z

Uhm.
Please don't do this again.
Please.

It's hard for me to trust people
Or respect them at all in any way
When they can't stay true to their words.

I really miss Jenni right now
And I know if she was home
I'd be with her right now
Having a good time

Rather than.
Sitting at home

Argh

heathurlee @ 2006-03-06T12:16:00

2006-03-06T17:46:55Z

Life's been pretty amazing.
In a big, big way

I can't even perceive how it happened
Things were so rough for a while
And now it's hard to figure out how things could get any better
Because every situation in my life right now is pretty much wonderful

The only part of my life that I'm having a hard time with is surprisingly with myself
I've been working on abolishing all my insecurities
They're so detrimental to my happiness
It's like this extreme case of stubborness
I KNOW deep down that I'm fine & accepted & loved
But even if I KNOW, this paranoia always overtakes my being
Like my brain refuses to see the truth, even though it's right there in front of me
And it ruins so many wonderful times and opportunities
Realizing this & confronting it has made things a little easier, I guess
It'll get better. With time.
I have no doubt in that

Yesterday was beautiful
And I really do mean that
Sitting at Randy's apartment
I felt such a crazy connection with everyone
Randy, Manda, Jess, Nanz, and I sat and talked for such a long time
And throughout it all, I felt this warm, sentimental feeling wash over me
And so much happiness I could have cried.

I'm thankful for the past I have with my friends
Because history is amazing.
It really is
BUT.
I'm also thankful for the present times
And everyone I've met over the past year
These people are just as important to me as if I'd known them forever
'Cause it feels like I have.

I love how our group has finally come together
We were so disfuctional for a while
Seriously.
And now we're all one big family
When we're all together, like last night, it just feels amazing to me
I think of how lucky we all are, and how happy I am to be there with them
And wow.
Does it get any better?

I don't have any expectations or needs
And that's why I think the situation Al and I are in works so well for me
I don't NEED him, not at all, in any way
And I don't NEED a relationship. I don't think I even WANT one right now
If we see each other, we see each other
If we don't, we don't
I don't get upset if I don't get to see him
Cause he's free, and he can do whatever he wishes to do
And I'll do the same
But at the end of the day, I know that he cares about me
And that's all that matters.
I've never felt like this... this comfortable with something so uncertain
And I really like this
This is THE BEST.
Seriously.

Life's a beaut :)

I can't believe it's only Monday
And I've got a wonderful week left with my friends
Wow :)
Life's greaaaat

Payce&love<3
Have a good Monday

heathurlee @ 2006-03-05T14:09:00

2006-03-05T19:28:44Z

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
"Woa... I have horrible a bed head... and it... looks... kinda sweet.."

2. How much cash do you have on you?
right now? 11 dolla

3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR"?
whore

4. Favorite planet?
URANIS ha..ha.. jk, I dig the red planet... Mars

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
Don't have a missed call list, just a recieved call, but the 4th person I missed was... a number I don't even know haha

6. What is your favorite ring on your phone?
The World I Know- Collective Soul

7. What shirt are you wearing?
Senior all-nighter t-shirt

8. Do you "label" yourself?
Naw, I am what I am, and labels are dumb

9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing?
Currently sporting the bare toes look

10.Bright or Dark Room?
Dark, man, dark

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
She's cool

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
I was sitting at Randy's apartment with a whoolllee buncha people

14. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
"mmmmkay, thanks"

15. Where is your nearest circle k?
Not anywhere near here

16. What's a word that you say a lot?
"I dig it"

17.Who told you he/she loved you last?
Uhmm Randy haha

18. Last furry thing you touched?
Bella Blue!

19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
Ein.

20. How many rolls of film do you need developed?
None bebe

21. Favorite age has been so far?
A combination of 17&18, by far

22. Your worst enemy?
Insecurity and paranoia

23. What is your current desktop picture?
A picture of Bella in my sweatshirt

24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
"lol, I'd imagine"

25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
Moooneeeeeyyy *chaching*

26. Do you like someone?
Yes :)

27. The last song you listened to?
Blessid Union of Souls- I Believe

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Alright.
Spring break has been so great so far
I just love it

Hanging out gallore
And it makes me happy

Al Jones is so nice to me
I adore him.

Last night was ridiculously funny
Everyone was just hilarious
My favorite part of the evening by far though was Blotter busting into Randy's apartment
Completely wasted
"I don't want to be mean... but you guys are COOL!"
Idk. I was laughing so hard I thought I was going to pass out
The greatest 10 minutes of the evening
Blotter, Nanz, and Al all make me laugh sooooo hard, ALWAYS

Just..
This is a great spring break already

And the official spring break song must be "Blueberry Yum Yum" by Ludacris
Just because whenever I hear it, I think of jamming out in Jenni's car
And things of that nature

Btw, I'm really going to miss Jenni :(
But she'll have lossa fun :)

I must go
Things to do!!!

Payce&love

heathurlee @ 2006-03-04T03:28:00

2006-03-04T08:33:21Z

My tongue hurts
Really bad
I don't know why

I'm waaaaaaayyyy too insecure
But certain things don't make it any better

Thank goodness for Jenni & Amanda<3

I had a good day
Fun with Jenni & Manda
Then we came to town
To Randy and Jazz's

Evening was okay.
I get in weird moods

I can feel it when people don't want me around

Talked to Peter finally
We're hanging out on Sunday
And I'm really really glad

I need to be more reserved
Much more
Duct tape to my mouth

Last night was fun
I <3 Al, he's great
And Jess & Nanz
Glad to be seeing them more lately

I'm so tired
And so not content
I need to spoon in a major way

Agghh.

To bed.
I said.

heathurlee @ 2006-03-01T22:50:00

2006-03-02T04:04:42Z

Maaaan.
It's almost break
Whudda relief

I'm so greatly looking forward to this weekend
Hanging out with all my loves
I gotta hang out with Jenni lots before she leaves
Cause a week without her, especially while on break, will be lonely :( :(
Getting to see Kate, FINALLY, after 7 months of not seeing her.
I miss her.
And I'm sure lots of crazyness, good times, and happiness will occur this weekend

Dunno if I'll call the boy or not
I was going to try that whole... not being a pest thing (paranoia, anybody?)
Let him miss me for a while...
But I'm no good at not calling him
I feel off-kilter until I talk to him
And he might be gone next weekend... for his birthday.
We'llll see
I can be tough though... RAWR!!

Manda... I love you more than anything.
You know that, right?
Sorry if I've made it seem like I think you don't appreciate me
I know you do. More than anyone else
I trust in you always, I love you always, and you're my other half, always.
You're an irreplaceable part of my life
Love you forever, sister<3

Picked up a whole puncha watercolor paper and paint today
Made me giddy
Michael's is the most beautiful store ever
All those crafts *salivates*
I just don't know what to do with myself
It's overwhelming in there

It feels good to help people out
To know you made their day a little better
Yea :)

Aiigghht foo's
I'm tired

PAYCE&LOVE<3
Have a good spring break, all you college dwellers

heathurlee @ 2006-02-28T22:40:00

2006-03-01T04:19:33Z

I really wanted to use my beloved watercolors tonight

I sat myself down
Got everything ready
And I just couldn't think of anything in the world I wanted to paint
So I sat there for a while longer
Closed my eyes.
And started thinking really hard of things that inspire me
And right away, one thing came to my mind

So I started to paint
And the whole time, I felt like my insides were singing
My fingers were tingling
And I started to get those butterflies
Who knew I'd actually feel all those wonderful emotions and sensations just painting this...
Gives you an idea how amazing I feel in reality
So stroke by stroke, color by color, there it was
A painting, yes
But all the answers I've been waiting for as well
And all this reassurance and certainty
Overwhelming, really
I didn't expect any of this
I was just bored and wanted to paint

But it was like therapy
I sorted everything out in my life with paint
And I haven't felt this certain in a long while

It's the first painting I've ever done that means something to me
Truly, absolutely, completely

It's not done yet
There will be much to add
But the story isn't fully written
So the painting isn't complete either

This just makes me realize
Something that inspires me this much can't be given up on
Distance is one thing
But throwing something good away would be STUPID

Why?
Why'm I suddenly building this wall & being annoyingly stubborn
I'M SCARED.
I tried to convince myself and everyone else I wasn't
But I am, completely.
I'm insecure & downright scared

But for once in my life, I'm totally patient
I'm happy right here, right now
And I'm enjoying life and the special situations in it progressing and taking place however they will
And it's wonderful, because I don't have to worry about anything!!

I don't know
Painting does something wonderful to me

I believe that life will take care of us all
And right now
I have complete faith that everything's going to work out for me
And everyone, for that matter

Time is a beautiful.

heathurlee @ 2006-02-27T19:22:00

2006-02-28T01:19:46Z

Jenni
THANK YOU
So much...
For always cheering me up
And listening
And laughing
And caring
And being amazing
And saying things at the exact right moments, though you don't know it
I really love you more than anything

This is experimental
Don't know if it'll work
But it's time to be real

I've been feeling a little crazy lately
Well, maybe a lot
I was fine for a while
But right now I can feel my plane taking a nose-dive

Maybe I let other people impact my feelings too much
But no..
Because the only impact my friends and family have on me is to cause me happiness
For the most part
And the one person who might possibly be able to toy with my emotions... just can't that much
Because I won't allow it

I think I just have horrible cabin fever
Actually.
Now that I've said it
I'm almost positive

I am so damn stir-crazy.
But I'm even more unmotivated
Doesn't combine well

I've never been the motivated type
I only make extreme effort for things that mean a lot to me (friendships & such)
I put about half the effort I should into everything else

I see some of my best friends
See them in love
And I'm so taken aback & overwhelmed by it all
That sounds so stupid
But I can't begin to explain how true it is
I doubt love for myself
For now anyways
But to see that the people I care about the most have found that deep place with another person is really comforting
One, because it shows me that something like that really does exist, and can be experienced
Two, because it makes my friends happy and so much more, and that's amazing

I understand that when people call me crazy
Or things of that nature
It's in an affectionate way
But sometimes it bruises my esteem a bit
I know I'm different, and strange
It's wonderful to be my own person
But some of the implications about me that people send my way really do hurt sometimes
Though I don't like to show it
There's just a line that should never be crossed

Right now I find myself drifting apart from some of the people I was closest to
And growing closer to people who I was once close to, but drifted apart from in the past
You think I'd be scared
Because change just isn't my piece of cake
But actually, it doesn't scare me at all
It doesn't make me feel anything, really
Except thankful
That I'm having second chances with these friendships
Guess maybe I don't feel that appreciated anymore by some
And to find out that the people who I've not been that close to lately, that they still care, and they appreciate me more than anything... it's a relief
And right now I need to be around people who SHOW they care
Because I love for people to know that I care about them, but it gets frustrating when they never let me know it back

And selfishness?
It's a killer
A killer of all things good in the world

I can tell when people aren't really listening
And it's good to know so many people who really do

I need to do well in school
It's not even an option not to anymore
I NEED TO.
I can't let my parents down anymore
Because I've felt their disappointment so many times
It's the worst feeling in the world
And I can get good grades
I know I can.
I always have before this year
I just need to motivate myself somehow
I wasn't meant to be a failure
Nobody was
We're all here to do great things

I really want to paint tonight
But I stare at my paintbrush
Will it to make something beautiful
But it's just not in me
I guess I realized I don't believe in myself enough to be able to paint well

And there's the world to me
Insecurity
I'm afraid to break out of my mold
Afraid to try anything
Or if I try, afraid to fail
Because I DON'T believe in myself
Not much
Maybe not at all right now
I'm learning
But sometimes learning takes a long time
And you keep falling until that one time, you just get up and go
Sail with it

But I can't sail with my insecurities
They're the weight on my feet
Pulling me down
And I can't struggle
Just have to wait to break free
And until that happens
I don't think I can be involved with anyone
I really don't
Because it would make things too complicated
I don't want that anymore
I just want simple
I don't want to worry every time something happens, or something's off, that I did that something
That's so tiring
For me and the other person involved

I don't want to fall for the wrong person
Someone please tell me I'm not
Deep down I know I'm cared for in this all
But that doesn't mean that it's right
Or it'll ever be right
That is why...
I'm distancing myself for a while
Can't keep doing this
It'll be good for me, and for the other
This I know.

I'm a little screwed up inside right now
And I apologize for it
And my need for constant reasurrance

I'm really glad for all of my friends though
I guess I talk about it often
But they're really all that keep me going
And happy
They all keep me whole
And I'd die for any one of them
Without a question
I'm so touched by all of you
Every day, in every way

I think that's about it
Goodnight<3
Folks

heathurlee @ 2006-02-27T14:36:00

2006-02-27T19:56:59Z

Wellllll
Haven't written in a few days

Conclusion of the weekend was good
Hockey game with the ladies, Mark, and Erin Feeley
And then a ride to Negaunee with Jenni and Manda and Jenni's cousin
Where we ran into a car accident *shudder*
Theeen to Jordan's for a get together
Twas good
Yesssstterrdayyy
I walked at the island with Manda, Jeremy, and Jordan
We went on adventure down an extremely steep hill
Then we went to Nanz's to hang out with Jess, Nanz, and Al

I'm way too insecure
And I shouldn't think that someone dislikes me just because they're tired, or quiet, or having an off day.
But it's hard not to
Just gotta remember, if someone really cares, they won't stop caring
And also
I'm an insecure loon, I gotta remember that too

Ack
My mum and her friends are talking about car accidents
And I don't like hearing it
That just freaks me out
Specially after seeing that accident the other night........

I love Jenni for spooning with me
And hanging out with me
Annnnnd being my friend
She's one of the world's greatest
I love, love, love her

ALMOST SPRING BREAK
And Kate's coming home!!!
Yus yus yus

Alright
Buhhhbye

heathurlee @ 2006-02-25T12:45:00

2006-02-25T18:03:06Z

Yesterday was KRAZY with a K.
Yea!

Hockey game was sweet
I had fun sittin' in Jenni's car with her & Erin being ghetto :)
And I encountered the freakiest couple of my life
Good gosh

Welp.
Jeremy&Alisha's birthday party was a success
Just pure ridiculousness
1/2 gallloooonnnnn
Twas good
Jeremy was absolutley hilarious
He rapped like it was nobodies business for an hour straight
Decked me across the face
And chased me with a burning cigarette
Never seen him that gone before.
And I loved it
He was.... SO FUNNY.
Ohmygoodness
Just all in all a great, great night
Aqcuired lots of hugs
Rudy & Ryan told me lotsa stuff in the morning I didn't remember happeneing
And that's how you know it was a good night haha
I broke my one month drought
Fell asleep to Mark calling me "Tranny, Tranny, Tranny"
And woke up having grown a mustache
And discovering a cot that magically appeared whilst I was passed out
Wowza *shocked face*

Annnnnd Al Jones came over for a while (but he hadda work at 10:45)
Called him while he was walking home, and we talked before we both passed out
Sometimes when I'm messed up I'm scared I annoy him. I hope not :(
I adore him, and I wouldn't wanna mess up a good thing.

I feel great right now though!!
And it's my mum's birthday
So going out to dinner with the family and Keith
ANnnnnd then going to the hockey game with my lovers again
Yussssss *pumps fist*
JORDAN is coming with us tonight!!!!!!
I'm excited for that

I'm kinda nervous and unsure 'bout stuff right now
Idk...
I'm way too damn self concious for my own good
It sucks.
Big hairy balls

Alright.
Haff good Saturdays
Love for all

heathurlee @ 2006-02-24T00:59:00

2006-02-24T06:11:40Z

He makes me happy
Really, really happy :)
I'm won over

And my friends are magnificent.
MAGNIF!!!

Tomorrow is the celebration of Jeremy&Alisha's birthdays
I'm excited
Manda, Lisha, and I are sharing :)
Everyone will be happy
We'll all have a good time
The boy & the friends
Wonderful :)

Well.
I never, ever, ever thought the butterflies would return
I thought they were gone for good
Now I feel like a whole flock of Monarchs are dancing around in my tummy

Surprise affection is the best
The best.

I'm really tired right now.
Really, really tired

Oh. dang.

HAPPY FRIDAY EVERYONE :)

heathurlee @ 2006-02-23T09:47:00

2006-02-23T15:04:25Z

I haven't been this sick in a long time
I thought I was one up on my immune system with the help of Zicam
Guess not.

Oh well.
Worry not
I'm hanging out tomorrow no matter what
And I plan to be fully recovered by then
Hopefully...

Hm.... :) :) :)

Almost Friday.
Heck yes.

heathurlee @ 2006-02-22T10:23:00

2006-02-22T15:51:25Z

Woa.
Things are so freakishly good right now
I just want to sit and admire it all
It seems like everything in life is falling into place
For EVERYONE.
And I'm really glad

When I look at each aspect of my life.
It just all makes sense.
Everything is coming together to work as a functional whole
Instead of having these little bits and pieces working against each other

I'm really thankful that all my friends and I have been getting to spend so much time together lately
For a while I didn't think anyone cared
Now it's apparant that we all love each other so much
And what's most important to us is each other's happiness
I'll never come across a funnier bunch of people
And I really do mean that
I can't even understand how some of the things we talk about are imagined
We've got the greatest group of friends ever.

And then there's the boy.
The boy who cares
The boy who I didn't think would care for me
But who admitted he did, and has started to show he does
The boy who's proved me wrong so many times
Doesn't matter where we're headed or what will happen
The boy who cares would never hurt me
He's shown that, and I trust it
I'm content in the here and now
Just falling. falling. falling.

People might call me stupid
But I know that I'm not
And the people who know me best believe in this about as much as I do
That means a lot, and it helps me a lot too

I'm so excited for this weekend
It's coming up fast
And we have wonderful, wonderful plans
For celebrating Jeremy's birthday
I can't wait to see everyone
Specially Jess and Nanz, who I haven't seen in 3 weeks
I miss them so much!!!

Wonderful.
Wonderful, amazing, special, happy things

And I'm glad for everyone
Because I know things are working out for all of us
And that's just amazing.

It's so sunny outside
It's great :)

Zicam is my hero today
For helping me overcome my horrible cold
Slowly, but surely

My friends are cool!!!!!!!

Have GREAT Wednesdays everyone :)
Muuaaah<3
Until later...

heathurlee @ 2006-02-21T08:12:00

2006-02-21T13:33:50Z

Ugh.
I feel miserable right now
I caught some kinda awful
Migraine, sore throat, and my whole body hurts
I'm crazy for coming to class today

100 bushels of happiness for Jenni :)
I'm glad you're finally getting to go to Ohio
Love you.

I am imagining my bed right now
And oooooh, how good it looks

Yesterday I hung out at Joh-dan's again
With Manda, Mark, Alisha, Mikey, and Kevin
It was neat-o :)
I dig my friends

Didn't talk to Al yesterday
I miss him already
Wishing it was the weekend now...

I remembered a crazy good dream I had a while back
Just a little curious
So I looked at a dream dictionary
It meant good things :) :)

Idk if I can sit here for another 1/2 an hour
I feel like curling up in a ball on the ground and dying
Yeesh

I'm going to go home....
Bye, loves<3
Haff a good tuesday, all